A very rare Sunday.

Woke up early in the morning to accompany my Mum to the market this morning.
It’s been a while since I spent time with her. Especially when she just complaint that I haven’t been really home for awhile. Or probably whenever I’m home, she’s out and when I’m out, she’s home. Haven’t see my Dad for 4 days straight this week.
Why is everyone in the house so busy??

But well, at least I get to spend time with Mum today after so long. Breakfast with her was something I used to do but rarely now. She’s so busy over Chinese New Year. Preparing all the good food for the family. Probably she’s the best Mum that no one can ever get. Sacrificing so much for the whole family.

Can’t wait for CNY! Though I dislike all the visitings but it’s nice to see relatives gathering together and catching up. And Ofcourse I get to see Grandpa!!!! Someone that I really love with all my heart.

Can’t wait to see Grandpa, really. It’s been awhile since I last saw him. Can’t imagine if he ever leaves us one day.
Better visit him more often before I regret!!

School again tmr! Nevermind, looking forward to the holidays!

Who’s fault?

Sometimes I really wish you would sit down and observe to see the truth for you yourself.
Selfish thoughts of yours makes even more misunderstandings.
Why does things have to go your way?

If only you’be seen it, if only you could feel how I felt then you’ll understand that “lonliness”. Worried but yet you’re not. Growing doesn’t means we can leave her alone. There are often ways to solve it and not just “everyone just do the same”.

I’m not pushing the burden. I just need you to understand how she felt. Often, your actions makes me feel half-hearted to what I want to do.

Most of the time I take the blame because I want everything to stop instead of saying everything out every single time to spoil the mood for everyone’s. Sigh.

Time to sleep now.
One of my new year resolution : Sleep early!!

Hardwork.

Homeworks are increasing every single day. Tests are not forgotten too. There’s never a day ever since day 1 of school there won’t be any work that doesn’t needs to be done at home.
I was merely MC for 2 days and so much has to be followed up. My goodness. I slept for only 2 hours yesterday. Supposing 4 hours but I have no idea why I couldn’t sleep even when I was so tired. Woke up late today, grunchy in the morning. All I did for almost a week was to reach school earlier by 10 mins or so and take the time before morning assembly to sleep.

I’m that tired. To the extent that I try not to talk to anyone before morning assembly because I really need the time to rest to stay awake for the entire day.
Everyday it’s the same routine. School, extra lessons, homeworks, sleep and it starts all over again a few hours later..
It’s that bad. And never did I expect myself to do all those homeworks. I never used to do them last year. A new year, a fresh start, a new me probably? And it happens whenever I sacrifices my sleep.

I have the time to blog and pen down my thoughts tonight was because I’m done with almost all the homeworks that are due tomorrow. I really need the time to relax and sleep tonight or I might really faint tomorrow.
It’s gonna be a long day yet again, but I’m sure it will be good.
Good conversations always make the day great! and “Always look on the bright side of life!” have been ringing in my head for almost half the day.
I’m going to sleep soon, it’s like 10.40pm now, so happpyyyyy!! I hope I sleep the moment I lie on my bed. Sleeping early shall be one of my new year resolution!
Goodnight people! Have a great day ahead!

Hatred.

Still struggling after a year. Why!!!
Blame it on Me Myself and I.

Hate it for being so indecisive.
Hate it for the lack of confidence.
Hate it for that little faith.
Hate everything.
Hate it, just hate it.

I can’t decide. I’m struggling STILL.
Sucks to be me.
What should I do.

POA is driving me crazy. Maths level test on Monday. Missed 2 class test this week. So much to catch up, lagging behind like nobody’s business.
No course in mind, no dreams, no visions.
No motivation to study. Hate it. Just hate it.

Hate life. HATE!!!

Virus.

The virus is everywhere in my class! 15 absentess for monday and tuesday, 14 absentess yesterday.

Had MC last week for 2 days and another 2 days this week. The school “disinfect” our class by just spraying dettol. -.- And no air-conditioned classroom for 2 weeks.

Homeworks are like never ending everyday. Hopefully I’ll be able to cope well this year…. Ok, the medication is making me drowsy. Time to sleeep!

Camp pics.

The worst camp but the best class of all!

I think the camp made so many of us sick. Just monday and there were 8 absentees in my class. I’m on MC for 2 days already. Hope I’ll be well and be back to school tomorrow. So much to catch up, huge amount of homeworks to be done and most of all, I missed the class test.

SSP officially started yesterday. This means that no more coming home as early as 2pm to have an afternoon nap. Nevermind, just got to endure!

I still don’t look forward to school, but well I can’t do anything about it but just go for it! I hope I will not regret for making that decision. ALL THINGS WILL BE GOOD! =)

Sec 5 Camp.

Back form camp yesterday. It was probably one of the worst camp I ever attended. Because our class’s ” discipline sucks” and had ” no integrity”.

I don’t see why the trainers gave to use harsh words on us. Well, probably because they are under attachment and not paid that’s why they are not putting in their best into this camp. That’s just how selfish they are.

But at least this camp allowed my class to bond even more. Closer friendships ofcourse! It was endless walking/trekking for 2 whole days! So glad that it’s over and many of my classmates overcome what they thought they couldn’t do!

Was having a fever before camp and high fever yesterday when I came back from camp. Today I woke up and to found out that my nose was bleeding. It bled even more when I sat up.

Monday’s back to school with lesson as per normal. Stressful periods are coming but I
can’t wait to see my classmatessss! BAGUS!

Weird.

O level results were released today. So happy for many of my friends. Though some didn’t meet their expectations, but they can’t do anything but to move on.

Tears of joy & Tears of sorrow.
It’s mine next year. What is it going to be?
I was quite discouraged with my MT results. Sigh. I don’t know what I should do about it. Retake? Drop? What?
Can’t help but to have thoughts about it the whole day.

Temperature was going up and down the whole day. Hopefully I’ll be able to get well by morning so I’ll be able to attend the school’s camp! And hopefully my back won’t ache that much during the entire trekking around Singapore with my Backpack.

Time for bed now! I’m a little excited for camp. It’s gonna be good! School’s gonna be good next week too!

1st week.

The first week of school is finally over!!!!!
Never have I had such a heavy first week of school before! To the extent that I dozed off in school for 2 consecutive days! I even slept during morning assembly yesterday. :S

Like what I said in my previous post, I wasn’t so looking forward to school for the entire week. But yup, it really got better after a few days I was so thankful, so much encouragements from my friends that I never expected.

Honestly I must say, I do miss my friends in school that have graduated. Feels so awkward without them, especially the sec 4/5 guides. So weird that that won’t be around in the school anymore. And that my batch of students are now the minority in the school. But nevermind, I’ll be able to see them on monday!

I wonder what’s the problem with my back. It’s aching so badly that the moment I reached home yesterday, I quickly laid down on the sofa. I hope there’s nothing wrong with it… I don’t wish to visit the sinseh…

Homeworks are piling up only on the first week of school. I hope the upcoming weeks will not be as exhausting as this week’s! Things will get better! Especially now that the weekends are here! Hehe, can’t wait to see some of my seniors later!!

Day 2 of school!

Actually I wasn’t looking forward to school today. But I told myself, it has to stop. If my mood for it doesn’t change, school’s forever going to be horrible for me.

And indeed! I went to school, telling myself I’m going to enjoy it no matter what! Though I detest one particular lesson today, I still enjoyed myself! My friends, funny jokes my class had, a camp to look forward to. Ya man, everything is gonna be good this year!

Just don’t like it when that particular teacher today looked down on us. Seriously. This teacher is “encouraging” students to concentrate on 5 subs instead of 6 subs so he/she can produce good students. And he/she constantly ( note that I’m using “constantly” ) and indirectly asking students who achieved a C5 from a F9 during N levels to drop the 6th subject.
Hello?! Isn’t F9 to a C5 not putting in enough effort?! Ridiculously isn’t it.

Ok, time to sleep now. Can’t wait for school in like 5 hours time! Love my class, really. School’s gonna get better everyday!